

His only flaws in this book were him being disorganised and slow. Thank God she grew up and realised what an amazing guardian she had, jfc. Anytime she was hostile towards him, I wanted to wrap him in a blanket and tell her to eff off because he is too precious for this world. He is Allison's adopted father and I want him to adopt me so badly. Maybe that's why she stopped whining so much, she realised that everyone has their battles to fight, we've all been through shit and being miserable isn't going to help matters at all. I was like 'THEM TOO?' and it made Allison's crappy life look quite cushty. I do that, I don't want to read someone else doing it (Ha!)Īnother thing I found a little.eh, not annoying but just something to point out actually, was that everyone had this horrific, traumatic past. I'm all for characters who embrace their flaws, who grow and make things happen for themselves instead of wallowing in their pity. Girl, you did good *pats her on the back* Going from being a complete hermit and staying indoors, having only your long-distance best friend as a friend and alienating your adopted father (who is AWESOME by the way), to being so confident that you make friends, call him your father (which wasn't easy for her) and finding a boyfriend. She developed so goddamn much that I was proud of her.

LUCKILY, she stopped saying it, and honestly, I became really proud of her. It got annoying fast and I used to read a lot of books when the protag was like that so obviously it was annoying to me. She kept saying 'I'm broken, I'm fragile, I'm delicate' every fucking page and if I was Esben, I'd be like 'I KNOW, YOU ALREADY SAID, I'll fucking break you in a minute'. I will admit, Allison at the start irritated me. I had to get that out of the way because it's basically taken over what I thought of the book so. As someone who has known people to die of cancer - and someone my age too - it really hit me hard and I was thinking 'is this what they were going through? Did she say this to people when she was dying?' and that really touched me and.I sobbed for fucking ages. The things she said to Allison, the desperation to get to Steffi before she died and when she was with her in her hospital bed. SpoilerIt wasn't just the fact that Steffi died but WE SAW IT HAPPEN. It was such a massive shift in the plot, and I'm feeling like I got a bludger to the head because HOW COULD YOU DO THAT that was fucking harsh and mean. I'm happy' which is a HUGE warning that something is about to happen.

I knew that things were too happy because our protagonist was all 'Everything is great. I was ugly sobbing at 2am last night and I still get emotional thinking about it.Īnd it came out of nowhere. The last like 30% of this book? I was a mess. I've not cried that much at a book in a long time.:
